Today is day three in my first class towards my masters degree. I am already not enjoying it and feeling the loads of extra stress... maybe this isn't the right time to go back. For the past two years I was dead set on the fact that I was done with school and not going to be a professional person. I was done with the stress of studying while juggling everything else. Then within the past month or two something triggered me to go back and give it my best... well... I did just that and am now changing my mind.
I guess I really need to figure out what I want to do in life. Do I want to make lots of money and work long hours and be important in the professional world? OR... do I want to stay where I am and make okay money and have set hours and time for family and friends? As inviting and challenging as option one sounds... I think that my heart is in option two. As many know my real dream in life would be to live in Florida, be a stay at home mom, and have five kids. AND as many know that is not going to happen. :-( So, maybe option two is the best compromise for me.
Maybe this school thing was a reality check for me, an eye opener, something to make me realize that I am good where I am. I don't need a challenging career. I don't want a challenging career. I just want to work at my secretarial job, have Pampered Chef shows once in a while, and then spend the rest of my time with family and friends. That fits me better. Ahhh feeling the stress lessen already...
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